There are days when my mind is filled with so much worry!
Worry about my future, my relationship, my life, etc…
People always tell me “don’t worry”, “be positive”, and all other optimistic statements. While those may be true, I can’t help the way my mind thinks. If something happens I begin to think, over analyze, obsess about whatever could possibly happen (good or bad). And I feel like some people just truly don’t understand me.
It’s not that I WANT to think negative or obsess over small things. I try really hard to get back to being a positive person, but after one experiences trauma or pain their brain chemistry changes. So it’s safe to say that I’m not necessarily the same person I used to be. Although I do have my fair share of down days, I also have some where I am positive.
Each day for me is a struggle in my emotions. I always ask myself what triggered these feelings and if they are realistic. Most of the time it’s usually just me and the things I imagine are so far fetched that I know they would never happen. But yet I still worry.
My goal for this next year is to continue working on my inner self. To change my attitude, my thoughts, my reactions, etc…
I need to let go of any pain from my past and allow myself to live in the moment without fear of the future.
Take each day one at a time. ❤️