It’s been a very long time since I have posted anything on there with real substantial emotion or thought. So I thought it was time for an update.
For a while I have been feeling very down, and slightly depressed about my life. I had feelings of frustration, sadness, loneliness, a sense of confusion, and just overall feeling lost in my life. This is in part due to my recent transition from graduating college (BA in Psychology - WOOP) to, in a sense doing nothing with my life. Unfortunately, my original plans of getting into grad school just weren’t meant to be at this point in time - which leaves me to still work at a local grocery store (which isn’t ideal).
Not getting into grad school is really what hit me. I mean, apart of me thought I wouldn’t get in anyways due to lack of experience; but I guess the aftermath of figuring out whats next for me is a scary thing.
Coming from a background of adversity; being raised in a single-parent headed household, three older brothers, lack of supervision or push/motivation from others around me, lower SES, tremendous amount of moves, familial substance abuse, etc.. With all this behind me I still managed to pull through and graduate not only community college but a 4-year college. This is something I should be proud of, which don’t get me wrong I AM. I just can’t help but feel like in order to make myself proud I need to do more, I NEED to make a difference.
Within my educational experience I have learned that one thing I really aspire to do is make a difference, to become a mentor - to others around me but especially to youth. This has always stood clear to me whenever someone asked what I wanted to do as a career - verbatim I say “to work with youth in regards to self-esteem, and social identity issues”.
So I thought to myself, what better time than NOW to start doing that!? I made the move to apply to volunteer for the Coalition for Youth - as a Crisis Counselor for the California Youth Crisis Line. After doing all the training and reading about this wonderful resource I am both excited and nervous to start making a difference !
Even though, I haven’t been doing this for very long I feel in my heart that I am in the right place, and in the right field of work. Reading past youth experiences and stories has empowered me to want to better myself, and to push through and create a better future. :)